I don't keep a diary or journal or else this would probably be in there, but I do feel the need to say these things outside my own head. So here it is...
As Jacob said early this morning my family can't cut break...my family meaning my mom's side. When things get hard it is normally in November or close to, I merely joked about this a couple weeks ago. It doesn't seem so humorous anymore. It first started with my little cousin Jalen who is only 4 having to go in to have a heart catheter removed. The reason for it being put it was because off some heart and lung complication, can't remember the name. Anyway he went in the Monday before Thanksgiving was fine for the first few hours after surgery, then he had internal bleeding problems and it became touch and go. The doctors came to the conclusion the best chance of survival would be a spleen removal. This worked, but now he is to take medications daily throughout his life, assuming all other obstacles are over for him. He is now taking physical therapy, occupational therapy, and speech therapy. He is such a tough boy.
Late last night I found out my Aunt Ti Ann was in the hospital, this turned out to be because of her appendix and it has now been removed. This has now been followed by finding out after church my great-aunt Wendy had passed away. This is bitter sweet, for she has been struggling with severe diabetes for the past few years, now we all know she is at ease and best of all with my Great-Grandmother(her mother), the best women I have ever known. My Uncle Bobby, bless his heart, has spent most of his days caring for her, carrying her(both literally and figuratively), doing everything he can to keep her comfortable and happy. All his kids are grown, busy and live out of state, she was his everything. I hope and pray he does okay without her.
All these things have made me feel so amazingly blessed and aware of what I have. For my husband,our love, our health, that nothing has taken him from me or me from him (I have to say that is one of our biggest fears). For our beautiful, healthy, amazing daughter who lights up our world. For the tiny blessings and the large ones. The church and knowing that should anything happen to use, we will be together again. For giving us the comfort we need in times of need and heartache, to know Heavenly Father is ALWAYS there for us. For the people in our lives outside of Jacob, Scarlette and I, both friends and family(no matter how crazy they may seem). Aside from the Gospel and Heavenly Father, Jacob and Scarlette are most wonderful blessing and it over whelms me at times my love for them. I am so thankful for them and every moment we have together.
That is all I need to share. I love you all so very much!
